關於每晚闔眼之前

幾乎每天夜晚在關上燈之後，總是期待著第二天不要來臨，捲曲身體緊閉著雙眼在棉被裡試著逃開從天亮的時間帶來的苦痛，今天、昨天、前天、這個月、上個月、今年、去年、現在、過去、以後，關於想要得不到以及得到後卻又失去之類的生活瑣事。Alex Turner的這張Submarine是常常會拿聽出來的一張原聲帶，尤其是在夜晚，旋律也是經常浮現在腦海裡。愛情就像是生活中的嗎啡，讓人暫時忘記生活中的不愉快，但也必須承擔服用的後果，一旦上癮之後想戒掉當然也很難。本來只是想借用"Hiding Tonight"這首歌名寫些在夜晚躲藏不想要有明天的心情，邊聽邊寫著就變成愛情收尾，當然這首歌這張原聲帶這部電影都是關於愛情的。

"Hiding Tonight"

Tomorrow I'll be quicker

I'll stare into the strobe light flicker

And afloat I'll stay

But I'm quite alright hiding today

Tomorrow I'll be faster

I'll catch what I've been chasing after

And have time to play

But I'm quite alright hiding today

And I will play the coconut shy

And win a prize even if it's rigged

I won't know when to stop

And you can leave off my lid, and I won't even lose my fizz

I'll be the polka dots type

I'll know the way back, if you know the way

But if you are, I am quite alright, hiding today

Tomorrow I'll be stronger, running colorful

No longer just in black and white

And I'm quite alright hiding tonight

And I will have a game on the coconut shy

And win a prize even if it's rigged

I won't know when to stop

And you can leave off my lid, and I won't even lose my fizz

I'll be the polka dots type

I'll probably swim through a few lagoons

I'll have a spring in my step

And I'll get there soon

To sing you a happy tune, tomorrow

And you better bring a change of clothes

So we can sail our laughing pianos along a beam of light

But I'm quite alright

Hiding tonight

Love, love, love

"Angels"

Light reflects from your shadow
It is more than I thought could exist
You move through the room
Like breathing was easy
If someone believed me

They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
In love, love, love

And everyday
I'm learning about you
The things that no one else sees
And the end comes too soon
Like dreaming of angels

And leaving without them
And leaving without them

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

And with words unspoken
A silent devotion
I know you know what I mean
And the end is unknown
But I think I'm ready
As long as you're with me

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love

You Can't Handle the Truth

The Truth 真理，Paul Pierce,Boston Celtics 1998 -2013的指標球員，今年轉往Brooklyn Nets後在1/27第一次回到Boston主場，由Boston Celtics製作的致敬影片。1998年Paul Pierce進NBA的第一年開始帶領Celtics從重建時期一路到2008奪冠，然後保持在東區強權間的競爭力，而這個冠軍也是Boston Celtics從1986年以來唯一一個NBA champion。在2013年季後因為球隊需要再次進入重建期的考量而被交易，但也絕對無法抹滅Paul Pierce對於Boston Celtics以及在Boston球迷間的地位。

從Micheal Jordan第一次在Chicago Bulls復出後開始看NBA，96梯、97梯、98梯的選秀球員在2000年後的全盛時期是我最常看NBA的時期，現在這批球員隨著年紀幾乎都已經退役，然而仍在球場上的Paul Pierce並不是個球風華麗、體能勁爆型的NBA球員，而是在球場上的精神相當令人尊敬，是我最喜歡的球員之一。

影片最後配樂是Arcade Fire的Wake Up。

Expecting To Fly

電影Daydream Nation裡最後一段的配樂，Emily Haines，cover by Neil Young

"Expecting To Fly"

There you stood

on the edge of your feather,

Expecting to fly.

While I laughed,

I wondered whether

I could wave goodbye,

Knowin' that you'd gone.

By the summer it was healing,

We had said goodbye.

All the years

we'd spent with feeling

Ended with a cry,

Babe, ended with a cry,

Babe, ended with a cry.

I tried so hard to stand

As I stumbled

and fell to the ground.

So hard to laugh as I fumbled

And reached for the love I found,

Knowin' it was gone.

If I never lived without you,

Now you know I'd die.

If I never said I loved you,

Now you know I'd try,

Babe, now you know I'd try.

Babe, now you know I'd try,

Babe.

好冷，在跳過一次冬天之後覺得好冷

停用facebook之後，開始跟大多數的資訊斷了連線，社會上發生了什麼事、誰又出了專輯、誰跟誰又怎麼樣，所有的事情都變得不太重要，回過頭來看，以前可能是有點資訊焦慮，就怕漏了什麼訊息一樣到處追蹤各種部落格、粉絲頁面，facebook、ptt就一直重複刷新頁面，哪個誰又說了什麼。

重要嗎?

去年的十一月到現在這段時間，認真看完了幾本書、把手邊的音樂再多聽幾次，開始念了幾課日文，做了幾道菜，節慶也是待在家裡過著日常生活，然後就這樣一月來了，順利的拿到工作，二月就得回到所謂的軌道，不想走上的工作軌道。

一月之後接著是二月，二月之後接著是三月，三月之後接著是四月、五月、六月、七月、八月、九月、十月、十一月、十二月。

二零一五年，計畫就在二零一五年。

不知不覺妳已經變成我心的一部分

知道妳會看到這篇，但我想說，這篇不是刻意寫給妳看的，只是想用文字紀錄在我腦中出現過的東西。

很多事，都是不知不覺開始的，不知不覺妳已經變成我心的一部分。一天有二十四的小時，扣除睡眠的七個小時，活動的時間有十七個小時，在這十七個小時裡，我想妳在我心裡佔據的時間有十三個小時，如果有出現在夢裡的時候，那這個量化後的時間數字一定更多，畢竟，夢境的時間總是比現實緩慢。

電影2046裡說「所有的記憶都是潮濕的。」我不是太能感受這句話的含義，但關於妳在我心裡的記憶，是溫暖的。

小時候喜歡雙數的數字，覺得雙數比較圓滿，但長大後卻變成喜歡單數，因為獨特，而且有孤獨感、距離感。

You know I love you so.

I swam across,

I jumped across for you,

Oh what a thing to do.

Cos you were all "Yellow,"

I drew a line,

I drew a line for you,

Oh what a thing to do,

And it was all "Yellow."