高溫40度的20121231

很快的又要過了一年
自從開始接觸到"工作"這件事以來
學生打工也好、正職工作也好
大部分的跨年都是在工作中渡過
只有在跟友人Luke香港跨年、當兵、去年U家
這三次不是在工作中渡過跨年
去年在U家晚上11點半下班然後趕回中壢
雖然沒有on time在倒數的時候
數不清楚幾年了
但是是那麼多年來第一次跟和平的大家在一起

八月底的時候結束了U家的工作
十月底來到澳洲當個波西米亞
在這裡兩個月來有工作的天數不到一個月
但也足夠應付生活上的開銷
因為我對處去景點旅遊沒什麼興趣
更喜歡平淡過生活融入在地的感覺
在台灣要做菜不是那麼方便加上吃的隨手可得
所以這裡最開心自在就是逛超市買菜跟做菜的時候

寫得很亂
先到這就好

嘿 你好嗎?

從台灣飛去澳洲一個半月了
你還好嗎?
聽你說做了兩個星期農場工作，很辛苦
你還好嗎?

接下來新工作找的還順利嗎?
身上帶去的錢還夠用嗎?
對於國外的生活還習慣嗎?
有認識一些新朋友嗎?

而你，你好嗎?


Morrissey - I'm OK By Myself (BBC Radio 2)

Could this be an arm around my waist?
well, surely the hand contains a knife?
it's been so all of my life
why change now?
"it hasn't!"
now this might surprise you, but
I find I'm OK by myself
and I don't need you
or your morality to save me
no, no, no, no, no
Then came an arm around my shoulder
well surely the hand holds a revolver?
it's been so all of my life
why change now?
"it hasn't!"
now this might disturb you, but
I find I'm OK by myself
and I don't need you
or your benevolence to make sense
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!
After all these years I find I'm OK by myself
and I don't need you
or your homespun philosophy
no, no, no, no
This might make you throw up in your bed:
I'M OK BY MYSELF!
and I don't need you
and I never have, I never have
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!
Noooooooo!

2WEEK

來這裡兩個星期

好像應該寫些什麼但卻又寫不出什麼

因為就是在過生活
對我來說也沒有什麼適應不適應的問題

有個台灣室友女生也是來兩個星期左右
每天都在跟家人或是台灣親戚聯絡
幾乎無時無刻
不知道為什麼這讓我有點火大

遇到一個香港女生Zita

來三天就去了印了50張RESUME

每天到街上丟履歷行動力很強

跟其他香港女生聊起天來的話題也比台灣女生有內容

我想這不是單只是個人，而是香港與台灣的差異
因為社會環境的不同讓她們更成熟更獨立
可能中學畢業17歲就出來工作
台灣現在幾乎都大學畢業22歲才面對社會
相對之下台灣女生真是弱必了

想要有一個跟我一樣沒什麼後顧之憂的人
可以一起生活然後留在這裡或是去別的地方
If you in the dark,I will follow you into the dark

Death Cab For Cutie - I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

I think I'm on the road,

如果有一本書的簡介是這樣

一個交往不間斷的男孩跟一個堅守完美愛情的女孩
有一天在網路上相識，發現原來他們常常處在同樣的空間
跟著音樂搖頭晃腦卻不相識
直到他們相約冰島一起尋找Sigur Rós，牽著手走在冰島一號公路上.....

這故事一定超浪漫

Sigur Rós - Hoppípolla

整理行李變成自己喝酒

明明今天要好好整理行李

卻變成自己在家喝酒

最近的心情真的是很差

在出國前這樣很糟糕

現在時間凌晨四點二十九分

稍微酒退想起這裡

拿出退冰的啤酒邊打網誌邊喝

這個時間點真的太不合理

但真的不想清醒只想這樣下去

上帝可以告訴我該怎麼辦嗎

這首整個催淚催酒

李宗盛-給自己的歌 

想得卻不可得 你奈人生何

該捨的捨不得 只顧著跟往事瞎扯

等你發現時間是賊了 它早已偷光你的選擇

愛戀不過是一場高燒 思念是緊跟著的好不了的咳

是不能原諒卻無法阻擋 恨意在夜裡翻牆

是空空蕩蕩卻嗡嗡作響 誰在你心裡放冷槍

舊愛的誓言像極了一個巴掌 

每當你記起一句就挨一個耳光

然後好幾年都聞不得 問不得女人香

往事並不如煙 是的 在愛裡念舊也不算美德

可惜戀愛不像寫歌 再認真也成不了風格

我問你見過思念放過誰呢 

不管你是累犯或是從無前科

我認識的只有那合久的分了 

沒見過分久的合

歲月 你別催 該來的我不推 該還的還該給的我給

歲月 你別催 走遠的我不追 我不過是想弄清原委

誰能告訴我 這是什麼呢

她的愛在心裡 埋葬了 抹平了 幾年了 

仍有餘威

是不能原諒卻無法阻擋 愛意在夜裡翻牆

是空空蕩蕩卻嗡嗡作響 誰在你心裡放冷槍

舊愛的誓言像極了一個巴掌 

每當你記起一句就挨一個耳光

然後好幾年都聞不得 問不得女人香

然後好幾年都聞不得 問不得女人香

想得卻不可得 你奈人生何

想得卻不可得 情愛裡無智者

說說新竹好了

八月二十六號從U家離職，九月七號租約到期搬到新竹
不想用搬"回"這個字眼，因為對於這裡我有太多的陌生
沒太多的認同感。

台北出生，國小、國中、高中在新竹
大學先到了台北，然後中壢
中間還有一小段時間在台南
畢業之後也先在中壢，然後到台北
現在暫時新竹，接下來伯斯

新竹生活是無聊的，我不是說自己生活無聊
而是這個城市感覺不到生氣，是冰冷的
就像是那些工程師的人的感覺一樣
是規律的，是沒有生活情趣的

這裡沒有什麼有趣的特色小店咖啡館
只有集團品牌能夠生存
而夜晚十點左右店家打烊
街道上人車變少
沒有像樣的消夜或是酒吧
咖啡館跟酒吧我覺得是孕育文化很重要的一環
當然，沒有這兩樣不代表就不是一個好城市
即使是好城市，也是個冰冷的好城市

對啊，新竹是幸福城市第一名
所以不需要這些調劑身心的東西或許也理所當然

熱狗 MC HotDog - 好無聊 (ft. A-Yue)

我常常都不知道到底要幹嘛
想要出去晃晃 到底要幹嘛
打電話給人家 欸你在幹嘛
得到的回答都是 我沒在幹嘛
沒在幹嘛 這感覺真的好悶
沒事就在家 這感覺像是個老人
我不想打字 我不想上MSN
被無聊綑綁著 像是被SM
咿蝶 咿蝶 那你咧
嘿 結果咧 結果咧 啃 沒搞頭耶
依然不范特西 依然沒搞頭
我依然沒搞懂 我終究是小狗

我搖頭又晃腦 好像屁股長了蟯蟲
這比饒舌還要屌
你看看 我有多麼無聊
寫出這種無聊的歌是無可救藥
我無聊 我又開始在讀書
我最愛死的一本書 叫做臉書
我把書呆子 這三個字顛覆
我的天父 請你救贖我的無助
去開心的農場 好傷心
去了傷心的酒店 我反而開心
如果2012末日真的來臨
那無聊的我不入地獄 誰入地獄啊
誰來告訴我怎麼會這麼無聊啊

今天Party好無聊 可是在家也好無聊
無聊有沒有解藥 沒有搞頭真糟糕
現在是幾點鐘 還不想睡覺
誰來陪我 一起無聊

每天都覺得無聊 每天都在喊無聊
一直上網好無聊 夜晚特別地難熬
深夜問題很多 來我家最好
誰來陪我 一起無聊 我好無聊

唉 沒搞頭已經不是一兩天的事
沒有搞頭 我已經寫了一兩年的網誌
我騎著白馬 卻不是王子
白馬馬力夯 喝了也沒爽死
等到頭髮都白了 我還在抱怨
每天都在喊好無聊 我很抱歉
Sorry, I am boring!
我這無聊的人生 有數不盡的Sorry
連空氣裡 都彌漫著無聊
煙霧瀰漫 我們開始無聊
早就習慣 我等到花兒都枯掉
我呼叫著 Mayday! Mayday!
我辦了黑莓機 也把不到妹咧 妹咧
最後約了一堆棒槌
今天剛好又是Friday night
史上最無聊的Party就在Tonight

Friday night is tonight
I feel like shit!
Oh shit!

Friday night is tonight
I feel like shit!
Oh shit!

今天Party好無聊 可是在家也好無聊
無聊有沒有解藥 沒有搞頭真糟糕
現在是幾點鐘 還不想睡覺
誰來陪我 一起無聊

每天都覺得無聊 每天都在喊無聊
一直上網好無聊 夜晚特別地難熬
深夜問題很多 來我家最好
誰來陪我 一起無聊

每天都覺得無聊 每天都在喊無聊
一直上網好無聊 夜晚特別地難熬
深夜問題很多 來我家最好
誰來陪我 一起無聊

我好無聊

我要去Champagne Supernova

身為一個負面人
難免會有出現想離開的念頭

或是會不想睡覺不想面對起床後的一切

以往都是在心情很糟糕很不順的時候

但是最近覺得

如果要離開

應該是選在覺得最美好的時候

這樣才可以不用再碰觸下一次的痛苦

Oasis - Champagne Supernova

How many special people change

How many lives are living strange

Where were you when we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall

Faster than a cannon ball

Where were you while we were getting high? 

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova in the sky

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova

A champagne supernova in the sky 

Wake up the dawn and ask her why

A dreamer dreams she never dies

Wipe that tear away now from your eye

Slowly walking down the hall

Faster than a cannon ball

Where were you when we were getting high? 

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova in the sky

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova

A champagne supernova in the sky 

Cos people believe that they're

Gonna get away for the summer

But you and I, we live and die

The world's still spinning round

We don't know why

Why, why, why, why 

How many special people change

How many lives are living strange

Where were you when we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall

Faster than a cannon ball

Where were you while we were getting high? 

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova in the sky

Some day you will find me

Caught beneath the landslide

In a champagne supernova

A champagne supernova in the sky 

Cos people believe that they're

Gonna get away for the summer

But you and I, we live and die

The world's still spinning round

We don't know why

Why, why, why, why 

How many special people change

How many lives are living strange

Where were you when we were getting high?

We were getting high

We were getting high

We were getting high

We were getting high

我才不要

總是在期盼什麼新世界的開始

但多數還是選擇覺得最安全的方式

不吵不鬧的跟舊世界妥協

理想型的愛人

理想型的生活方式

原本是想列舉很多理想型的什麼

但卻什麼都想不到

可能是在意的理想型只有這兩件事吧

而我只是在妥協與不妥協之間還不願意妥協

還不願意聽起來就是遲早會願意

只是"還不"

才不要咧

Joy Division - Atmosphere

Walk in silence,
Don't walk away, in silence.
See the danger,
Always danger,
Endless talking,
Life rebuilding,
Don't walk away.

Walk in silence,
Don't turn away, in silence.
Your confusion,
My illusion,
Worn like a mask of self-hate,
Confronts and then dies.
Don't walk away.

People like you find it easy,
Naked to see,
Walking on air.
Hunting by the rivers,
Through the streets,
Every corner abandoned too soon,
Set down with due care.
Don't walk away in silence,
Don't walk away.

Bitter and Sweet

人啊，在情感面上都是多多少少有點變態的
為什麼開心的時候要聽開心的歌
而難過傷心的時候要去聽難過傷心的歌呢
為什麼關於傷心的歌總是比開心的歌多那麼多
為什麼好的創作作品大多都是在情緒低落的時候產生的
即使開心的時候我們也會從那之中尋求一點苦痛
用那些痛來證明自己當下的存在

The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
 Try to make ends meet
 You're a slave to money then you die
 I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
 You know the one that takes you to the places
 where all the veins meet yeah,

 No change, I can change
 I can change, I can change

 But I'm here in my mold
 I am here in my mold
 But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
 I can't change my mold

 No, no, no, no, no

 Well I never pray
 But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
 I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
 I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
 But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

 No change, I can change
 I can change, I can change

 But I'm here in my mold
 I am here in my mold
 But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
 I can't change my mold

 No, no, no, no, no

 I can't change
 I can't change

I'm Floating in Space.

每一天，都需要睡眠
而隔天在睡醒睜開眼的之前
我常常緊閉著雙眼不想張開
然後期盼著

昨天睡前以為是記憶的記憶都是在做夢
其實睜開眼後的世界才是真實的
或是
時間已經快轉五十年
睜開眼發現自己是個在椅子上打盹的老人
旁邊有燒完的香菸
唱片可能是播放著Bob Dylan或是Radiohead什麼之類的


Spiritualized - Ladies And Gentlemen We Are Floating In Space

All I want in life's a little bit of love
To take the pain away
Getting strong today
A giant step each day

I've been told
Only fools rush in
Only fools rush in
But I don't believe,
I don't believe
I could still fall in love with you

I will love you till I die
And I will love you all the time
So please put your sweet hand in mine
And float in space and drift in time

All my time until I die,
We'll float in space just you and I
And I will love you till I die
And I will love you all the time
So please put your sweet hand in mine
We'll float in space just you and I

I love you today, I guess that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to
Everything happens today
And we're out here in space
And I don't know where we are all going to
I love you today, I guess that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to

最近都在喝酒

這一個多星期來的每天晚上
不是在外面喝酒就是在家喝酒
在外面喝完酒回家都是凌晨兩點多
隔天就睡到中午左右
起床也不知道在幹嘛
接近晚上就想開始喝酒
搬回家裡住真的是很不習慣
除了一直有食物供給之外
跟他們的生活方式有太多的差異
如果酒精也有無限供給的話我想會舒適一點

今天是八號，二十五號就要出發去澳洲
但是現在什麼都不想準備
白天就有一搭沒一搭的看看去澳洲的事
不然就看看PTT棒球版、NBA版、八卦版之類的
偶爾翻翻書，手邊這本是失戀排行榜
反正機票跟backpacker都訂好了
backpacker也訂了一個星期
一定有更多奇怪的人都可以在那活得好好的
我想我一定可以在那邊活下去
都是在過生活，只是換個環境生活
沒有那麼難
現在期待的是26號到澳洲星期五緊接著就是周末
我比較期待這個周末

這首歌Rehab是Amy Winehouse寫關於她失戀然後酗酒然後戒酒的事
Amy Winehouse不是漂亮的那種，但聲音很性感，歌很吸引我

Amy Winehouse - Rehab



They tried to make me go to rehab, I said, "No, no, no"
Yes, I've been black but when I come back you'll know, know, know
I ain't got the time and if my daddy thinks I'm fine
He's tried to make me go to rehab, I won't go, go, go

I'd rather be at home with Ray
I ain't got seventy days
'Cause there's nothing, there's nothing you can teach me
That I can't learn from Mr. Hathaway

Didn't get a lot in class
But I know it don't come in a shot glass

They tried to make me go to rehab, I said, "No, no, no"
Yes, I've been black but when I come back you'll know know know
I ain't got the time and if my daddy thinks I'm fine
He's tried to make me go to rehab, I won't go, go, go

The man said, "Why do you think you here?"
I said, "I got no idea
I'm gonna, I'm gonna lose my baby
So I always keep a bottle near"

He said, "I just think you're depressed"
This me, "Yeah baby, and the rest"
They tried to make me go to rehab, I said, "No, no, no"
Yes, I've been black but when I come back you'll know, know, know

I don't ever wanna drink again
I just, ooh, I just need a friend
I'm not gonna spend ten weeks
Have everyone think I'm on the mend

And it's not just my pride
It's just 'til these tears have dried

They tried to make me go to rehab, I said, "No, no, no"
Yes, I've been black but when I come back you'll know, know, know
I ain't got the time and if my daddy thinks I'm fine
He's tried to make me go to rehab, I won't go, go, go

Bob Dylan - Make You Feel My Love

這是我長久最喜歡的歌之一
歌曲裡的"I"完完全全的就是我啊

Bob Dylan - Make You Feel My Love


When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

Oh! 好久不見

最近期一篇文章的日期是2010

原本以為應該是更早一點的日子

就是更久沒使用這個blog的意思

我一直以來就對時間這個數字沒什麼概念

就像常常有人問我幾歲的時候

總是回答1984年出生

實際歲數真的懶得去計算也不記得

如果不是總是有人會提到年齡這件事

大概會連1984這個數字都搞不清楚

原來後期這裡的顏色是改成這樣都忘了

很NU RAVE的感覺嘛 

想到剛開始使用blogger的時候

是妳幫我改成三欄式的

把帳號密碼交給陌生人回想起來還蠻酷的

接下來即使顏色排版怎麼調整

三欄式的基本格式一定不會改變

這是對於這裡的自我小小堅持

然後
先這樣